Nearly a 6 month hiatus with me completely MIA… and, oh what an emotional rollercoaster these past few months have been for me. To break it down and not go into too much unnecessary detail…

My father was diagnosed with cancer in September. Specifically, a gastrointestinal tumor found in his small intestine. A very rare cancer that is usually caught too late and which had already spread to his liver. As you can imagine, this was quite a shock for our family and has been especially hard for me. My dad decided to move back to LA and get medical care at UCLA medical center which I think was a very wise decision. He’s also moved back to his home which is where me and my husband currently live. Some days are good and other days are not so great with his health. But mostly his state of mind has been affected as he is often sad, depressed and expresses much self-pity.

How can I explain what I’ve been going through..It feels like I’ve been shot in my heart left and right with bow n’ arrows. I’ve had more than a few emotional breakdowns these past months. If it wasn’t for my husband Lars, I don’t know how I would get through it all. I’ve realized that I can’t let it destroy my well being and my sanity. I sort of stopped everything I was doing for a few months and now I have to pick myself up and keep telling myself that life must go on. I’ll do everything I can do help my father fight this sickness and hopefully get better, but throughout it all I can’t let my emotions get the best of me anymore.

With all that being said…I’m back. Back to my design, creativity and my blog. Back to my friends and those who I love. And most importantly, back to a healthy outlook for myself, for my future and everything I want to achieve. As some of you who have visited my blog in the past can tell, I’ve completely redesigned it. A fresh look for a new year…stay tuned for much more to come.